Cutting
"It was a relief to make my emotional pain physical."
By Sarah Richardson
When I was 14 I felt like I was slowly drowning in a wave of depression,
and the only way out was cutting.
I’m Sarah Richardson with a commentary from Youth Radio.
Others who cut themselves said it didn’t hurt, but it did.
I ignored the pain. It was a relief to make my emotional pain physical. I wanted
everyone to see how bad I was hurting so they could understand what I was going
through. I continued to cut because I wanted to have the scars to remember how
much pain I felt.
I can’t remember the exact moment that things started to
turn around, but at some point, I realized that cutting wasn’t making
my pain go away. Now that I’m 16, I don’t cut myself anymore. I
learned to verbalize my hurt without using scars to do it for me. I learned
to express my pain in a journal instead of on my body.
For Youth Radio, I’m Sarah Richardson.
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